Sunday, May 9, 2010 • 9:51 PM
Work had been hectic that i dun have the time to rest, let along to blog.
12 hours of working hours for 5 days per week.
i can even fell asleep while blowing my hair dry, terrible!
my mum would look at me, shake her head and say : 何必呢？
i seriously dunno why am i holding on to this piece of shit when things ain't the same anymore.
the time i've lost for the past 9 mths plus, i can never get it back.
sometimes, i dun even know who can i turn to when i need someone, to be there just to listen to me, to give me encouragements.
friends that i used to be close to, i've been feeling awkward meeting them cos we no longer share the same topics. i had no idea what they were chatting about, it sucks, seriously. especially you know you dun belong to the click, anymore.
i'm sorry. i know partially i'm to blame when things ended up like that.
saying "i've got no time", frankly speaking, it's just excuses.
it's just something we make up to cover up for us.
i wanted us to be like what we are, but i know it's impossible.
i can only go through all the pictures i've took with you all. (:
very emotional post. i can't help it though.
Friday, August 7, 2009 • 12:36 AM
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i really wonder if anybody had missed me, at all.
current status : down.down.down.
• 12:28 AM
thank god it's totally fine now, i've got quite a handful of things to update, from my zoo trip to lesty da ge's advanced birthday celebration! no doubt i have tons of pics to upload!
i'll update them, one by one, so stay tune! (:
it's been ages since i last saw you. you. you.
Thursday, July 16, 2009 • 12:02 AM
7 more days ♥
can't wait for the day; our very own special day!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009 • 11:24 PM
we were suppose to meet at 3pm but end up meeting at 5pm, as usual lah, when both of us always tends to drag drag drag the time. haha.
had a good time catching up with her and of course cam-whoring, it's like we took more than half of our pics in the bus lah. lol.
through our conversations, i realised how fragile looking she is now, as compared to the past.
i watched as she grow, from a little girl to a fine young lady!
I can see the tiredness in her eyes, the way she talks.
please do take care sweet! (:
you're always pretty to me my dear girl, have more confidence!(:
there are lots of ups and downs in a relationship, you ought to be strong to keep it going, especially when you guys just started not very long ago. it's hard to maintain, but if there's a will, there will always be a way. JIA YOU okie! no matter wad, you have us, your friends to lean on!
i really enjoyed myself that day. thanks for accompanying me~
more neoprints and outings like this, with ling, ting. (:
LOVE YOU GIRL! ^^
Friday, July 10, 2009 • 9:48 PM
i'm finally meeting her up tomorrow! (:
it feels good to catch up with old friend again.
on a even more happier note, i can see mr bf tomorrow too! woohoo~
: i should be contented :
• 12:09 PM
It had been raining constantly for the past few days. It rain, then stop, then rain again.
Unpredictable weather, but i kind of enjoy the cool weather these days.
More of that please! (:
Anyway. i woke up today seeing my papa arranging the alter for the buddhas.
changing water for the flowers, getting fruits on plates. chanting prayers for hours without fail,
that is his daily rountine.
He is really one devotee. He could spend alot on the statues and all without a word, just to give the buddhas a place of belonging.
He believes in the existence of gods and buddhas, and he always tell my sisters and i that by praying now till the day you're gone, there will be buddhas to bring you to the other world.
no scientific facts, it's whether you believe it or not.(:
the buddhas, 三宝佛
can you believe these flower arrangements come out of a man's hand?=p
my mother used to joke bout how sissy my papa is, that such a big man doing such girly stuffs,
my papa would laughed and said : " this is called art. "
but it's nice isn't it? i would never be able to do something like that.
pretty light. (:
saw the mist- like looking smoke?
it's like the insecticide that they spray every once in a while to kill pests like cockroaches.
the smell is choking smelly especially when we live on the 2nd storey, we had to close all the windows and switch on all the fans to let the smell fade away lor.
i bet there will be many dead cockroaches lying dead on the staircase later.
gonna play bejeweled, it's a everyday thing. (:
• 12:15 AM
Take a look at what i'll do when i'm real bored. =/
Thursday, July 9, 2009 • 9:02 PM
Had a small birthday surprise for ant at iluma last saturday. We decided to settle ourselves at ant's favourite fish & chips place called the Manhattan Fish Market. Although we had reserved a place. it took us quite a while to actually settled down and get started with our own made handcards! (: With bout 30 mins left, we cracked our brains to came up with each one's design for the birthday boy. Sorry for the ugly card ant, i'm pretty bad at art and crafts. =x
hope you like the birthday surprise ant! (:
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• 5:52 PM
This post is meant to be updated weeks ago.i'm really sorry for the very late entry cos i'm way too lazy lah. Anyway, to keep this entry a little more interesting, i've posted pictures along with it, and please pardon me for the first 11 pictures as i'm again, too lazy to edit them and making them look nicer. Alrights. let me go abit more in detail of the outing kay?
Dinner at eh. ohshit. i dunno the name of the place but it's some japanese food court somewhere near plaza sing lah. But seriously, if you asked me to lead the way again, i'm sorry it can't be done since i'm a 路痴. =x Oh ya, one funny incident when some of the herdies wanted to buy toto there, it's a little different from those normal singapore pools where you can just walk in and out as you like. There's these 2 security guards standing there to look out for those under 18 years old who are not allowed to buy any lottery. The funny part is that, everybody walked in without problem except for ant. The indian security guard stopped him and demanded to see his ic. You should have seen ant's expression when he turned backwards to look at ben and me lah, classic! hoho! Perhaps it's the way he dress that makes him look none other like a teenager in poly bah. wahahahaz. funny lah! I think it's the only disadvantage to look young bah. hiak~
after dinner, ben bring us over to night & day to give the birthday boy and girl a surprise! I think it's a pretty good place to like chill out with friends. pretty nice atmosphere, at least i kind of like it, just that it's a little too dark in there, take pictures cannot see the face lor. -_____-". They have quite a big toilet for both genders. yes. both share one big toilet. But one thing i'm rather puzzled is that, such a big toilet but there's only 1 cubicle each for m/f and it's very small ! Small as in you dun have much space to stand and all lah, even candiz so small size also got problem le, spare a thought for the big ones like me.tsktsk.
eventually, camwhoring in the toilet with candiz and menda, after which weiwei and jerry joined in and i believe we spend at least 15 mins in there, taking pic after pic. And i heard that jerry was supposed to come and look for us but end up joining! haha.
guess the surprise is quite a successful one bah! (:
shall let the pictures do the talking! (:
left early to head down to seng kang to attend hel mei's advanced birthday celebration.
i don't have the pictures with me so i'll post them up when i get hold of them yeah?
long entry, but worth it. (:
• 5:32 PM
Randomly, i asked my little sister how many posts she had in her blog and she tells me that she have 523 posts while i had barely 200 posts in my blog, to think i'm the one who tells her a blogger blogs everyday lah.
super lousy me.
i really wonder does she really have so much to blog about? like every single day there will be something to post no matter what. =/
i'm ashamed, really.
she had her blog much much later than i am lah..
i dunno what had gotten into me, but i dun seems to have much to blog lately,
and even if i have, i'm far too lazy to get the pictures uploaded and rant bout how the events are blah blah blah.
i'm not even sure why am i having a blog now, when i doubt there's any readers who drop by just to read my entries.
take a look at my tagboard, and see how dead it is.
i blame nobody, since i'm the one at fault. (:
anw, next post up will be the outings i went.
: heaven and gucci's birthday celebration.
: ant's advanced birthday celebration.
give me the strength to carry on.
Friday, July 3, 2009 • 10:29 PM
and seriously, if i didn't spend so much on those neoprints, i would have been a rich girl lah.
lots of memories flashes back while looking at them, like how cmi i looked in the past ( i dun mean i look good now.) , how dumb and silly looking our poses are etc.
i think i really look like some maid with cockroach fringe in the past lah. wth wth!
sudden change in my mood.
very very very pissed now.
will update more when i've got more stuffs to update~
(:
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 • 6:36 PM
2. Who can you blame for your bad mood today ?- I'm not in a bad mood at all.
3. How was your night, last night ?- abit of eh insomnia
4. How are you feeling right now ?- sian.
5. Who were the first 2 person you heard this morning ?- ah gong and mother.
6. What are you listening to now ?- please be nice to me by kim hyun joong
7. Do you think someone is thinking of you right now ?- i don't know.
8. Last thing you bought ?- hair dye and maggie mee
9. Are you a jealous person ?- kind of.
10. Does it take alot to make you cry ?- nah. i'm a crybaby.
11. What are [ were] you doing 12.30 in the afternoon ?- sleeping on sofa.
12. Think alot before you sleep ?- forever like that one ma..
13. What's running through your mind right now ?- mr bf! <3
14. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to ?- yes.
15. Do you like to cuddle or snuggle ?- both.
16. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now ?- mr bf.
17. Do you wish someone would text or call you right now ?- yeah.
18. Is your life anything like it was a year ago ?- nope. i had more freedom back then.
19. How late did you stay up last night ?- 1 plus.
20. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it ?- ice green tea!
21. Have you lost contact with someone you didn't wish to lose ?- hmm. yeah.
22. Who are your fave person to talk to when your down ?- eh. it's keep within me.
23. Does anyone calls you baby ?- none of your business anyway.
24. Are you a patient person ?- to a certain limit.
25. What is the last thing you said out loud ?- none.
26. Any plans for tomorrow ?- rot even more.
27. What you can't wait for ?- saturday to come! =D
28. Would you go out in public looking like you do right now ?- A 100% no.
29. What is the worst way to say "iloveyou" ?- not saying iloveyou yourself.
30. Seven weeks from now, will you be in relationship ?- i am already in a r/s.
31. What do you carry with you all the time ?- Handphone.
32. Are you mean ?- if someone is mean to me.
33. What holidays are your b'day(bd) closest to ?- valentine's day consider as one?
34. What is the last thing you searched on google ?- can't remember.
35. tag 5 ppl to do this quiz .- this is not facebook, mind you!
Sunday, June 21, 2009 • 11:41 PM
HAPPY 3 YEARS 11 MONTHS BABY!(:
Thursday, June 18, 2009 • 9:04 PM
i'm here with a good news!
i pluck up my courage to ask my mum if i can go out on saturday and the answer is a YES!
and i repeat myself again, IT'S A YES!!!!!!
but the bad thing is, i have to be back home early again.
-______________-"
man.
how long am i gonna wait to have my freedom back again? =/
i miss late night outs! =p
anyway, i've not yet buy hel's birthday present.
i was thinking rather than end up buying things she dun like, might as well ask her straight wad she wants.
and that girl still didn't give me an answer!!!! RAWR!
helicia khoo, you never say i never buy one i tell you! hahahaha~
faster tell me so that i can buy k?
oh ya. i really dunno how to split myself into 2 on saturday.
cos i have to be there on both.
jialat le lah. =/
just when i've got outings to go to,
one big pimple rested itself on my chin!
>.<
damn pain. fugly. =(
please go away by tomolo!
i''ve got the sudden urge to snap my hair short!
tempted*
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 • 8:12 PM
I'm back for updates!
i'm feeling way much better now.
i just want to get those things over.
(:
went out real early yesterday, like 10am?
i just want to avoid friction with mum as much as i can.
it's super tired hearing her scream and shout.
it spoils one's mood.
anyway, spend the day with mr bf.
it's been ages since we actually spend time together, i mean just the two of us.
watched land of the lost as well as drag me to hell.
i had a good laugh watching land of the lost, some parts are just hilarious!
and i seriously think i'm wasting money on the second show, i've been covering my face from the start to the end of the show.
the sound effects and the eerie looking ah ma is a hate point.
i've got bad headaches after the entire badlyshakenfromtheshow.
mr bf is lik watching a comedy throughout the show, if you get wad i mean.
shrugs*
i'm never a horror movie fan you see. =x
back home at 11.30pm.
sucks. for i wish i can have more time with bf.
i want more time with bf~~
i want more time with bf~~
but the bad thing is,
i've not yet gotten back my keys.
>.<
so inconvenient la.
wth.wth.wth!
i really wonder if this coming saturday is a lucky day or wad not.
1. have to attend bf's friend wedding dinner.
2. herd outing.
3. hel's advanced bbq birthday celebration.
oh shit.
so does that means i got to divide myself into three?=/
guess i'll skip the wedding dinner since bf most likely will be working till late.
i'm left with herd outing and bbq, oh well.
wait.
i'm not even sure if i can get myself out of the house not.
gosh!
feels like insomnia.
Monday, June 15, 2009 • 6:17 PM
current mood : fcuking pissed off.
first. she complain how freaking late i return home.
second. she say meet bf only once every week. ( WTF!?)
third. she took away my keys.
forth. she said i always hand out with my friends till damn late.
fifth. she said i've got so much money to take cabs, demands me to return her the money i own her.
sixth. she forbids me to use the laptop from tomorrow onwards.
seventh. she demands me to switch off the com by 11pm tonight.
eighth. she pluck off the wire of my sis's desktop.
ninth. she threaten to confiscate all my sis's money if she didn't want to do the assessment she buys.
tenth. she forbids sis to go out even during the holidays.
and seriously, the damn list goes on and on.
awesome!
WAD A "WONDERFUL"MOTHER I HAVE!
Saturday, June 13, 2009 • 11:06 PM
was running through the messages in my phone i've received from friends and mr bf.
both wonderful and horrible memories flashes back in my mind.
=x
upon seeing the messages my lang and the others had send me really makes my day better.
can't help but smile, seriously. (:
like think back now, friends whom are pretty close to me,
like suddenly drifting away slowly from me.
friends that i msn/sms almost everyday in the past,
somehow like vanish from my life?
friends that you had like almost everything to talk to,
lessen.
eh no, i should say i can't find one now.
i hate that our conversations ended abruptly,
leaving us awkward.
so, we do have limited topics to talk about?
oh well. sucks.
so where have my old friends gone to?
it's been months since i last heard bout them or meet them up.
great.
RAWR!
i'm ending my post now.
it sucks, seriously.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009 • 6:47 PM
pardon me for that!
100 TRUTHS.
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: low fat milk
2. Last phone call: ben ( not pufferfish ben. )
3. Last text message: zai
4. Last song you listened to: thinking of you by katy perry
5. Last time you cried: i can't remember.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope.
7. Been cheated on: sucks. hell yes.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: yeah
9. Lost someone special: nah.
10. Been depressed: used to
11. Been drunk and threw up: never did happen to me, yet.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. dark purple
13. black
14. grey
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yup
16. Fallen out of love: nope.
17. Laughed until you cried: LOL. i did!
18. Met someone who changed you: so far. none.
19. Found out who your true friends were: hmm. i think so.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no. maybe have, just that i dunno.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: uh huh.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: quite a handful!
23. How many kids do you want to have: 2, max 3.
24. Do you have any pets: no.
25. Do you want to change your name: nah. though i know how freaking common my name is.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: sad to say, an early celebration with menda and nana and spend the actual day with bf.
27. What time did you wake up today: say 10am?
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: listening to songs and sing along with it.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: i want clubbing or late night out with friends!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just a min ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: can't think of one.
32. What are you listening to right now: not listening to any songs.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no. =/
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: boredom
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, tagged.
36. Whats your real name: Amanda
37. Nicknames: manda, dada.
38. Relationship Status: attached.
39. Zodiac sign: aquarius
40. Male or female?: female lah.
41. Elementary?: bukite ho swee & seng kang pri.
42. Middle School?: hougang sec.
43. High school/college?: boston business sch.
44. Hair colour: brown, with some black. =(
45. Long or short: long
46. Height: 167cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: blahblahblah
48: What do you like about yourself?: i dunno. you tell me?
49. Piercings: used to have 4. now 2.
50. Tattoos: no. but i hope to get one at the spine?
51. Righty or lefty: right, sometimes left? =p
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: i'm thankful i had none.
53. First piercing: when i'm like 10?
54. First best friend: 7!
55. First sport you joined: basketball?
56. First vacation: dun have! =(
58. First pair of trainers: can't remember
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I’m about to: watch tv
62. Listening to : nothing.
63. Waiting for: people to talk to me.
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: of course!
65. Get Married?: definately!
66. Career?: yeah!
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: can i have both?
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: if i really have to choose, will be hesitant.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76.Kissed a stranger: no.
77. Drank hard liquor: i can't drink
78. Lost glasses/contacts: lost glasses i think
79. Sex on first date: siao arh?
80. Broken someone’s heart: ya.
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yeah
85. Fallen for a friend?: yeah
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes.
87. Miracles: yea.
88. Love at first sight: not really.
89. Heaven: maybe.
90. Santa Claus: nope.
91. Kiss on the first date: with the right feelings ba.
92. Angels: no
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: i think so, when i'm younger i think? totally stupid! =/
95. Did you sing today?: yes!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: consider have ba. who doesn''t have a past?
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: back to secondary sch life.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: my birthday
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: see the title lah! >.<
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 • 7:13 PM
hadn't been blogging for like 3458759106 years!
i have tons of things to update, but i'm plain lazy,
and seriously, i dun know how to start.. =x
will update more when the mood kicks in.=/
=)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 • 11:04 PM
thank god that both my grandparents are back home.
thank god i dun have to wake up early to go to the hospital anymore.
i thought things would turn out fine,
but it seems that the nightmare just started.
my ah gong, the stubborn little old man.
have been making things a little harder for us at home.
i guess he just yearns for our attention ba.
praying hard he is on his way to recovery. (:
it was after so many things that had befall to our family,
that i realised how noble my parents are.
every little things they do, just to keep our family going, makes me feel inferior.
as their elder child, i ought to be helping out now, to lighten off their burdens,
but i'm still here bumming around at home, wasting life away.
exams is just next week, and i had nothing in mind.
it sucks. and i hate myself for being so useless, a good for nothing!
for if i were to live without my parents, wad would i be?
thanks for being there,
my superman papa, my wonderwoman mama.
salutes**
and again, i'm no superwoman.
Monday, May 18, 2009 • 11:02 PM
i'm on my way to recovery, left with the stupid cough.
can you imagine the whole family falling sick like together?
we are like taking turns to fall sick.
argghhh!
anw, ah ma is back home with us though chances of her getting well is like 0%?
my father just want her to spend her last days at home. =(
but thank god she's breathing quite smoothly for the couple of days.
just when she's under control,
my ah gong was admitted to the hosiptal this morning as he's out of breathe.
went to visit him just now at the hospital.
he is still very weak.
doctor said that if he continues to smoke, he wun be so lucky to survive anymore.
things have been very unlucky for my family recently. =(
god, please bless both my grandparents well!
hadn't got the time to mug for exams since i have to go to the hospital all the time.
damn. i'm so gonna flunk again.
i'm dying of fatigue.
=/
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 • 8:22 PM
grandma was admitted to the hospital, once again.
she's having a fever, her lungs are infected and her blood pressure is low.
the teochew tagline we both shared keeps ringing in my head.
whenever i said "dua bee dote ah ma" ( i dunno how the dote word in eng)
she would reply, "ah ma dote dua bee"
and she will repeat it over and over again,
"dua bee dote ah ma, ah ma dote dua bee".
the thought of not being able to hear it again frightens me badly.
please god.
you save her thrice.
please give her the strength to pull through this again.
i really dun wanna lose her.
i love you, ah ma.
=(
Monday, May 4, 2009 • 11:50 PM
i'm so happy you're back in singapore.
but i seriously feel so un-loved.
empty.
: (
Saturday, May 2, 2009 • 9:47 PM
the birthday boy looking happy!
pictures with some of the girls.
honour lea. feed by the birthday boy!
sniggered*
And that's the poloraid with t.t!
(she's the one in black)
bf will be back tomorrow! woohoo~
