Simplicity

Saturday, March 28, 2009 • 4:56 PM

planned to meet up with menda all today but it seems that many couldn't make it,

hence, it's cancelled.

i thought i might have the chance to go out and breathe in some fresh air,

which i assumes will clear my mind better.

staying home hadn't been good,

i've got nothing to do and things that i dun wanna be reminded of, returns.

it's killing me, bit by bit.

arghhh, it sucks.

but.

i feel that i'm better.

it's healing way more faster than i expected.

time is all i need,

to remember nothing.

Thursday, March 26, 2009 • 10:48 PM

It's over.

perhaps thing shouldn't have start in the first place.

the damage is there, and nothing amends it.

it tortures my mind almost every single night,

and it never fails to bring tears to my eyes with heartaches.

i still can't really get over it, yet, but i'm trying.

this time round, it's you, who had ruin the whole thing.

you destroy everything with your own hands.

it's not really you giving up on me.

I'M THE ONE.

this friendship is going to the dump.

i'm not taking it back, ANYMORE.

from now on, your existence means nothing to me.

i can't be bother, at all.

i'm glad things have ended.

on a happier note,

i'm glad i had a chance to talk to menda on msn ytd, after so long.

able to see her through webcam, see her smile, crap with her,

really makes me happy. (:

i can't believe i've not been talking to my friends for at least a few weeks. ):

of course, i sense the distance

and i dun like it, not even a single bit.

but i've been really anti social these days.

darn.

i might end up without any friends with me if this continues.

i'v got at least 4 unknown cuts on my legs,

i really had no idea where or when did i actually cut myself.

wounds everywhere, the worst is none other than my heart.

heart wrecking, we call that. (:

oh ya, i've been burying my head in books for the past few days.

i rather spend time reading than to surf net.

tat's so not me.

i guess i need a change.

i yearns for a change.

Monday, March 23, 2009 • 1:12 AM

i thought it would be easy to forget every single thing.

but i was wrong, totally wrong.

instead of dumping away the unwanted memories,

it refreshes even clearer each time it reappears in my mind.

permanently in my head.

why torture me like this?

it's never easy. ):