Simplicity

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 • 1:12 AM

i didn't meant to post emo entries all the time.

but they do enjoys my company.

i didn't have a choice unless something or someone chase them away for me.

i need something to knock me out right now.

the urge for something which enables me to sleep through the night.

pathetic.

oh well.

tomorrow will be a better day.

i'll be fine, soon. ^^

• 1:07 AM

big girls don't cry.

i ought to be strong.

tears ain't always suitable to drop all the time.

they meant nothing at all in the end.

stab me with a knife, will you?

• 12:57 AM

I never want things to end up this way,

i dun wan us to be unhappy just because of my insecurity.

it's the last thing on my mind to make you unhappy.

but.

i dun like the coldness in your tone.

neither do i love waiting for your smses.

i know you're busy with work.

but i'm really lonely.

the feeling sucks.

i'm sorry for thinking too much.

i'll be alright soon, i hope.

and i just realised,

i hate the way i am now.

hate it to the core.

Monday, March 9, 2009 • 1:12 AM

i can't find another more appropriate word to use.

the word hate seems abit too much, for i hold no grudges to her.

but the sight of just her name, brings back tons of unpleasant things to my mind.

it flashes back, so quickly and clearly, as if to remind me.

tears followed after heartaches.

you told me you had no idea why i reacted so much upon her.

i guess you never know exactly how much pain i went through alone.

it's not easy to put down everything, pretending that nothing had happened.

for , somehow, in a way or another, it happened.

i doubt you really understand.

and i had no idea how to explain to you either.

the wound hurts once in a while,

i find it pretty difficult to breathe actually.

i'm sorry if i acted strangely today.

definately againest my will.

sometimes, i just wish you were abit more observant and sensitive toward me,

understand wad i've told you,

remember every single line in your mind, seal in your heart.

i guess it's not difficult task to accomplish. (:

i can't help but detest. detest. detest.