Simplicity

Friday, December 28, 2007 • 12:00 PM

22 dec 2007

i ought to apologise to ling.

shouldn't have blew my top at anyone on tat day.

but geraldine really get on my nerves la,

i'm already trying hard to keep my temper down,

yet i got agitated by her cos she asked me everything..

i mean, it's your stuffs, you choose your own after ppl give u advices.

she wants ppl to choose for her lor and we stuck there just by shopping her stuffs.

afterwhich, send geraldine to interchange before proceeding to bugis to wait for hel to knock off.

anyway, thanks ling for being so understanding..

sorry for blowing my top as i really really dun feel good on tat day.

really sorry.....

and

happy 2 years 5 months my dear...

24 dec 2007

spend my christmas eve at home.

it's such a lonely christmas this year.

25 dec 2007

meet up with hel and waited in parkway for ling to knock off.

i bet the 3 of us doesn't have any christmas mood this year.

in fact, we all agreed that year 2007 is a bad year,

i just hope it turns out really well for us in year 2008.

bf and i were pretty okie,

just tat he still keeps to himself..

i guess i'll just let natural takes its course,

hoping tat things will turn out okie for the both of us after some time....

27 dec 2007.

happy 19th birthday to ting and sihui.

the friendship problem,

i've got nothing to say if you people sees us at fault.

aunt and uncle keith came back from aust.

had lunch with them in marina square's 店小二。

the food there were pretty good and the stuffs there were wearing wad the people were wearing many many years ago.

the menu also becomes a 店小二秘笈。

very creative and cute!

juliana will be going to aust on the 1st of jan 2008.

4 more days before she leaves.

just hope everything turns out very well for her and tat she will be safe and sound.

一路顺风！！！！

drink with a zing which cost 10 bucks from pan pacific hotel.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007 • 9:22 AM

it's christmas ytd and i can't feel any christmas mood.
the things tat happens, makes my heart numb.
anyway, meet hel and together we find ling who is working in parkway.
saw amos who is there waiting for her.
so sweet hur...=)

the couple were always seen bickering with each other,
scolding each other with nasty names.
i tell you, you will find them damn cute.
i know they never meant to say those stuffs,
it's just out of "entertainment".
seeing them so sweet, makes my heart even more sour,
i dun even have the chance to bicker with him...

met him ytd.
bought him a sweater, shaver, shaver foam and the card i made.
he told me he loves the presents.
he told me he's touched after reading my card.
he give me a kiss,
a kiss tat calms my heart down...

we sit down somewhere near my house.
the place we always sit down and talk.
he told me he missed the times when we could meet anytime, anyday that we wanted.
he said he's not a good bf as he's working all the time and didn't have enough time for me.
currently, he's too stress out with his work and the business he's into, too mch problems had occurred.
i really wanted to believe that's the only thing that's troubling him now.

he send smses all the time and appears to be hiding from me.
i asked him, he said it was a friend.
i find it hard to believe yet i told myself to trust him and stop my wild imaginations.
i dun wanna suspect him and become so paranoid bout everything.
other den all these, he's normal like before...
i want everything to end.
i want my dearest to be back like wad he used to be.
he say he needs time..
i dun wanna pressurised him.

his friendster status is under it's complicated,
whereby the past, he put it as married.
i dun wanna think so much.
i just wanted to love him.

will be meeting him on sunday.
i really hope things will got better as the days passed.....

all i wanted is you to be back by my side.
all i want is you, loving me only with all your heart, for the rest of your life...

要你心里只有我，
心里只爱我。。。
我要的就这么的简单。。
真的有那么难吗？？
我要的只是你回到我身边。。。。

Tuesday, December 25, 2007 • 2:22 PM

days passed.

my heart still hurts.

i didn't want him to know.

we were on the fone the 2 days ago,

i asked if he's still thinking bout those stuffs.

he replied no, saying that things tat had already happened, people already died, wad's there to think about.

he turn to ask if im still thinking.

i replied no, which i'm lying.

i dun wan him to remember anything tat had happened.

i want him to put down everything and start afresh with me.

he still calls me dar dar, which he always do back before all this,

just tat because of so much that happens,

we become distant le.

the one i dread the most,

happens.

i guess, all we need now is,

time and only time.

ytd while waiting for his smses,

i decided to make him a card,

though it's not a card tat's with nice glittery stuffs or wadever,

but it's wad i feels rite from the bottom of my heart.

我不要你爱我因为我对你好。。。

我要你爱我，因为我是我。。。

Sunday, December 23, 2007 • 8:59 PM

i meet him on friday.

he told me everything honstly..

the truth hurts me like hell.

the pain in my heart was unbearable.

i can't accept the fact.

we were now trying to hold on to our relationship for as long as we can.

because we still love each other,

he want me to tink about whether i still want to be with him still,

after all those stuffs he hide from me.

i know,

he's already not the one i know back den.

there's too much things yet i can only keep it to myself.

i have to put up a strong front to others,

i'm really really tired,

yet i'm not prepared to let go..

the one i've been with for the past 2 years plus,

the perfect bf in my heart,

is gone suddenly.

my heart went dead.

other den feeling the heartache,

i feel nothing at all.

i'm willing to forget and forgive everything.

i'm willing to start all over with him.

but he's not able to put down the past.

he said he need time.

he told me he's under lots of pressure.

but i am under alot of pressure too.

friends were telling me to let go of him.

but i can't..

i really really can't.

he's been a part of me for so long,

i simply can't let go.

wad's more, i love him too much.

i think of him everyday.

i see the pics we took everyday.

i listen to teardrops on my guitar everyday.

i cried everyday.

i read every of his messages from last time till now..

a total of 870 messages.

i even keep the normal conversation he send me now,

they are just too precious to me.

i really hope we can start all over again.

call me silly.

call me stubborn.

i just love him too much.

impossible for me to leave him.

everytime i see the picture we took on my hp,

my heart hurts so much,

my tears roll down my cheeks,

i just wanted to say,

i love you so much dear,

i miss the old days we spend,

we were so happy...

wad happens now....?

baby, i miss you so much....

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